I’m a computer geek, but I’m not a programmer.
I’m anti-social, but love being around people.
You kind of get the picture, the thing that was great about me in High School was the fact that I wasn’t in any cliques. I didn’t have to deal with any drama, and everyone would not only talk to me but hang out as well. Oddly enough, these qualities that were once great are now the bane of my existance.
People tell me that I’m smart. One would think that if that was true I wouldn’t make so many mistakes. I suppose maybe the reason I make mistakes is the fact that I’m not afraid to try something just because it might be a mistake. Is the whole deal a mistake? I have no clue!
But, I know one thing for sure. I’m at the point in my life where I need to find where I fit. I don’t fit at College, at least not IUPUI. I have a GPA of 1 to prove it. I don’t belong at home with mommy and daddy. I don’t fit in with my co-workers.
I’m not entirely sure that even going to college in the first place was a good idea. I probably should’ve gone to vocational school or just hit the work force right out of High School. The past year has been so difficult for me, and has changed me into a person who I don’t like. I’m chronicly frustrated, overbooked, late and annoying. I wasn’t like this before.
Going into college, I had money saved up from the job I had before. I had everything I needed, so I decided not to try and work and go to school until after I had gotten used to it. Now, I’m beyond broke, beyond stressed out, and generally unpleasant to be a friend to. Ironically, I also have more friends now than I have have before.
I don’t know, I’m confounded at this point. I don’t know where I belong or what I should be doing.
Ahh!
